I was badly injured during my son Sam’s birth in October 2011 and was left with an infected 4th-degree tear, septic recto-vaginal fistula and a permanent colostomy (stoma).
I was mentally very unwell, with PTSD, post-natal depression, and severe anxiety, I lived 150 miles from my family and my husband worked offshore as a diver so was away for weeks/months at a time.
The fistula was septic for one year, so I was in and out of hospital getting it opened and drained under general anaesthetic. It used to take me 1hr 20mins to walk (stagger!) a walk which prior to the birth would take 20 minutes. I was incredibly debilitated and of course, carrying my pregnancy weight too.
I realised that I had to start focusing on what I could do, as opposed to what I couldn’t do (as I was medically pensioned out of the police force due to my physical and mental ill health).